Tuesday, July 28, 2020

07/28/2020

This is the 2nd day without my medication. Pharmacy didn't get it in time, so I have to endure it now. Maybe (I truly hope!) they get it tomorrow.
I'm fine! Really!

No, I'm not. I'm kinda moody and this voice in my head keeps yelling at me louder.
I try my best to ignore it, but I can't hide, this voice put some questions in my mind. I know exactly they will be left unanswered. Answering them would mean showing feelings for me and let's be honest, I'm just not worthy of deep feelings. There are people who might like me, but... Does it make a difference if I'm here or not?
Does my presence in their life make a difference? What would happen if I'd disappear? Would it even be noticed?
I surely wouldn't be missed by anyone. Maybe some would wonder for a day or even 2 where I am and then I'd be forgotten. Just another shadow in the dark, not worth a 2nd thought.
And maybe it has to be like this.
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