That's an important topic. People always say "Live without regrets" but for real, that's total bullshit.
We all regret stuff. Things we said, things we did, there's always something you could think "Why did I do/say this? What would've happened if I handled it differently?"
Sometimes even years later. Something happens and you feel reminded of a certain situation. And there it is: regret.
I was crazy enough starting to write everything down what I regret. About some things I still feel ashamed, even when they were over a decade ago.
Some may think now "Why does it bother you? It's in the past, you can't change it." that's true, but it affects me. It affects my actions, my thinking, everything. I'm more sensitive with those things, more careful around certain people.
It's way easier to shrug situations relating things off than it is with situations relating to people. Especially when I see them around. I get nervous, I look down and mostly I look for the fastest escape route.
Yes, maybe I'm really dumb for letting these things so close to me, but that's just me.
A really close friend told me "You care too much about things and people" and he's right. I know this. But unfortunately I don't have a switch to deactivate that.
I am caring. Is that really that wrong? My best friend would yell "YES!!" now in my face xD
At least I can say, I was always honest. I didn't lie to people. I was always open to the people I trusted and trust.
It's time to let some of those regrets go. I can't fix everything with everyone and that's ok.
I try to let more go in my life. Won't be easy, but it never is. Moving on can be the hardest thing to do and nothing is as hard as a first move.
But I won't hesitate anymore. At least I try to not hesitate anymore.
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